happy 2008!

i've never been one to make new year's resolutions. i've always thought that it's stupid to wait till the beginning of a new year to start something that you know that you should do, or that you want to do...there's no time like the present. but this year i've decided to make one...well two actually.
first, i'm making a resolution to actually write on my blog! i started this so that all of the wonderful people in my life can keep up with what's going on in my life, but then i never updated it...so it's my goal to post something at least twice a week. we'll see how long that lasts!
and my second resolution (and my actual resolution) is to be me. i've always been the sweet, timid, wear my heart on my sleeve, give you the shirt off of my back kind of person. i've been teased because of it. i've been taken advantage of because of it and because of that i began to change. i like being all of those things, it's who i am and if that means that sometimes people are going to take advantage of that then that's on them.
so here's to 2008, to blogging, and to me!

home for the holidays!

so my AMAZING boyfriend bought me a plane ticket to go back to texas for christmas. i wasn't sure that i was going to be able to take christmas eve off of work, so i wasn't really thinking much about it. but i found out yesterday that if i work the day after thanksgiving i'll get christmas eve off, so when talked to the boyfriend this morning he said he was going to get straight on the computer and buy me a ticket. he also reserved me a rental car so that i don't have to depend on others to take me to visit everyone...and that means that i get to go see my family in oklahoma. i would much rather spend christmas with him, but since i can't this is the next best thing! i'm so excited i can't wait to see all of you guys...and pat melissa's pregnant belly!

jazzercise

the boyfriend and i used to work out together before he left. he's something of a health and fitness freak, so going to the gym together was something that we regularly did. i really enjoyed it, it was fun going with him, watching him lift weights and stuff. when he left i struggled to find the motivation to go to the gym because i don't really know what i'm doing without him telling me how to use the machines and stuff. so when i was looking for a small, local gym i came across a jazzercise class in my area. i must admit that because of the fact that i danced most of my life i thought that it would be a piece of cake...i have to confess, it's kicking my butt! my first jazzercise class was with out a doubt the hardest workout i've ever had!

Bubbly

These are lyrics to a song by Colbie Caillat . I must say that I wasn't a very big fan the first time that I heard it, but it's growing on me. Parts of it really make me think of the boyfriend!

I've been awake for a while now
You make me feel like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your timeWherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

FUN DIP!!!

it really is the little things that keep me going right now, i'm at the point of this deployment where there seems to be no end in sight...i'm still 4 1/2 months away from his mid tour leave.
but yesterday i was at the toy store in the mall and saw FUN DIP!! before today i never would have believed that there were people who didn't know what fun dip was, but i was there with the boyfriend's younger brother and he had no idea what it was. and then when i was telling the boyfriend about it and he too had no idea what i was talking about...so for those of you who have never had fun dip either, it comes with a candy stick and three different flavors of dip that you dip the stick in. you lick the stick, dip and repeat!
so i had to buy some for me and the boyfriend's brother, and while i was licking and dipping it brought back so many memories from my childhood! they come with two sticks and three flavors, so my little brother and i had to share and we always fought over the cherry flavor. grape and apple were on the outside, i got grape and he got apple. but what we both really wanted was the cherry.
awww, great childhood memories!

to blog, or not to blog...that is the question

i've gone back and forth about blogging too many times to count since the man i love deployed in may, i even started blogging and then erased all of the posts....well this week i've decided to blog, and this time i'm here to stay!
i had a really rough week (i'll probably post more about that later), and all i wanted to do was talk to my best friend...who happens to be a million miles away, who i can't just pick up the phone and call, who really doesn't need to hear about my bad day, because in comparison my worst day is still probably 10 times better than his best day over there.
so, i'm hoping that blogging will help me to get out my frustrations. that this will be a good outlet for me, a way to release all of my negativity.
but i also hope for this to be a place that i can share my positive experiences with being in love with a soldier. we get so down during the deployments, that sometimes we forget how good the military life can also be.